when everything is falling apart
you will be safe in His arms.

*phil wickham* safe.


i like when music is exactly what i needed to hear.
don't you?

Work for the next two weeks....

i am really looking forward to these next two weeks at work...in the fall quarter i ran the hospitality department at our mountain campus...but didn't really enjoy it very much. It was just overwhelming having everything changed for me.
Coming back home after visiting my family for three weeks *SUCH a blessing for me* i am definitely ready to start working again!
These next two weeks i am running the department by myself and have found that my new best friend is the list i carry with me everywhere so as not to forget anything and i LOVE crossing things off the list! Even sunday at church was a blessing...we only had two kids 7&9 brother & sister and they were super cute...It just makes me happy to be busy again.
Last night we watched the bachelorette at my house...i still hate it, because it is ridiculous, but it was fun to hang out w/ the housemates.

Here is my latest fav for the week....

my baby sister is graduating high school today!!
i am so thankful to be able to be here w/ my family during this
time!

i love them so much! they are beautiful people.

cleaning the room
doing laundry
getting coffee
reading a book
oh, and right me up by state radio
memories. lovelove.

sounds like a perfect saturday to me.


hugs & love,
Alli bird.

beauty in the status updates

this morning i got to go to coffee with a beautiful
friend: miss Alyssa, we got to share about our lives and it
was nice...she's truly a beautiful lady.

now i am looking at facebook and friends status updates to
see how their days are going and if anyone has posted anything
funny...
but its two status updates in a row that have caught my attention

I am blessed because i am loved by You
&&
only You can restore my soul

these things are kind of amazing reminders for my current life situation.

I'm glad that He is so faithful in every circumstance of my life and
every battle in my heart..He is here to figure it out with me. Hear
my screams and cries...Heal my heart... restore it back to the fullest..
bring me true joy and show me HOW to live. Through this.
Through all of It.

thanks Jesus, for your love for me & my family.
I love you back.

For Your steadfast love is before my eyes, and i walk in your
faithfulness. Psalm 26.3
The title of this psalm in my bible is I will Bless the Lord.

I want to do that with my life, because He is worthy.

have a good tuesday kids.

Xo,
Alli bird.

"i don't know which way i'm going. i don't know what i've become..." *coldplay*


fragile.
unable to fix the pieces.
unable to get the years back.
the effort i placed into a relationship
that will soon be evaporated into nothingness...
a decision that will affect three valuable lives.

selfish
the hurt that breeds inside the hearts
of people. the unavoidable things we think
and then the actions that we end up doing.
not thinking of anyone else, letting our own
selves come before others.

broken.
the inconsistency that is, at times, how life goes.
the world.
peoples hearts.
God's heart...when our hearts hurt.
families
lives.
dreams.


restoration:
cities, walls, bones, pavement,
doors, hearts...


i know who my Father is, and i know He
is not abandoning.

i just wish i could keep something, but
it seems everyone has run away again.

i hate seeing others weaknesses...i hate
judging people. but it is natural and in
this circumstance, i'm going to.

today i feel::
loss, anger, rejection,
unbelief, abandonment,
disappointment, jaded.

it feels like:
i have done this too
many times to count
& i wish it could all
just end...that these
lame surprises would stop
surprising me, that my hope
could be restored in mankind..
that promises mean something

can they PLEASE mean something to you?


i just want to keep something.
please?