dads

today i drove to work and then we had worship...it was cool finally connecting with
the lyrics people around me were singing...someone shared a word and we prayed for
south korea.
then for small group we got into my car and...it wouldn't start.
for whatever reason i wasn't really stressed at all, which is not like me AT ALL.
someone helped me jump it, then we drove for about twenty minutes before arriving at our
destination, goodwill, where we had fun trying on different stuff and looking for something good to wear
for our end of quarter dinner.
We had to jump the car again...so we drove for such a long time AGAIN and arrived back at work.
At the end of the day, i tried to start my car and it wouldn't start, so my good friend John came and took a look
at it. He suggested that i get my battery tested & luckily, we have a place RIGHT by our work....so i took it on over
there and the guy basically told me: you're going to need a new battery, here is the one you will need, it's a hundred bucks.
I didn't know what to do, because i do not have a hundred bucks....so i just said: well, i really can't buy that now....can you just jump the battery again so i can drive it home?
the other guy in the shop asked what if i gave you a discount? and i just looked at him and said: even at that price, i couldn't pay for it, i just don't have the money....& then we were talking and i said i worked at YWAM and he said: really? oh. then he looked at the other guy and said: let's just donate it to ywam then.

i just got a brand new battery with a two year warranty from two really generous people, just because they wanted to bless me.
i started crying in the store...God met me just where i was at and said: I'm your father, this is what i do, i will provide for you. I love you, i care about you, i will protect you and keep you safe. You are my child, i will be here with you. I will give you peace in the crazy situations of life. I will be with you, for always.

I just like that my dad loves me and cares for me always.

He is good and oh so faithful.

[[for your steadfast love is before my eyes and i will walk in your faithfulness]]

that is one thing on my mind tonight.

i am thankful that as i continue walking forward, He stays in front of my face
so i don't have to worry or stress...what if You leave me?
He doesn't.
and i am thankful.

making my room cleaner than it is, makes my heart happy.

& that, is all i have to say.

mumford and sons is super relaxing and amazing.
i just got the CD (i know, right...how late am i?) and it's been
the best thing, while reading and writing...and i just love the guys
voice a ton. *yes, a WHOLE ton*


Having Nic over this past weekend was great...i love showing her off
to everyone around and getting to hang out and just be together, means
so much to me...

My birthday is coming up soon-ish and it doesn't feel like it at all this year...I don't know
why, but it just feels far away and unreal.

I feel like throughout this year i have learned more about His faithfulness and how steadfast
He actually is in my life. You can read the words and hear it so much that you become
desensitized to it. I never really understood and i'm still working on it, but it's nice knowing
it a little bit more.

I don't know exactly what this next year will be like, but i am so looking forward to all of it.

Fall has been the best thing to happen to me in a long while and i am so grateful for winter
to come to me. It really is the nicest season of them all.

maybe i don't have the strength,
maybe i don't have the faith.
you brought me here in 40 years.
when i know this trip should take a week
i've shed my tears and shed my blood
been ransomed by the flood
and winter steals my songs away
in all of this i've come undone...

when you walk through the water
i will be with you
when you pass through the river
the waves they will not overtake you
when you walk on the fire those
flames they will not touch you.
You are Mine.

lyrics i like. *You Are Mine chair & microphone volume 3*

I really admire parents who are passionate about this future that will be
shaped by these tiny thoughtful hands-the hands to bring:
justice, love, mercy, grace, peace hope, and future to those void of all good. these hands iwll bring back joy, water, laughter, shelter, bread, gratefulness, thankfulness...truth. I'm so excited
for these kids because they are so full of life, so full of beauty, so full. of your goodness.

& thank you for what you're already doing in life and in the world.

thank you Lord.

today i woke up at 1
i had breakfast.
i remembered about the blueberries i purchased last
sunday and transfered them from the refrigerator to the freezer.

i got to hang out with Amy.
then hang out with my housemates. at the sketchiest little
amusement park i have ever gone to in my life.
i went on a rollercoaster and i didn't die.
not even a little bit!

i love saturdays and i love weekends and i love
my life.

i just feel super blessed to have the family i do
and to live in the house that i do...and i feel
loved.

majority of the time in my life, i feel loved.

it is such a great thing; grace.