new favorite song.

tuesday bloggin'

blueberry bagels
reflecting on life
listening for the phone to ring
being nice to people
friendship bracelets.
representing different countries. ones i've
never been to...
dreaming of things.
wanting bigger dreams.
making things that are amazing and fun and beautiful.
taking ownership of my feelings.
moving forward in life
drinking lots of water.
thinking. and more thinking.
processing.
prioritizing

l i v i n g
b r e a t h i n g

l o v i n g
l a u g h i n g

i feel so much these days.
sad because good friends are leaving. my small group going forward after their dts...feeling so blessed to have been part of their lives. thankful for cell phones that keep people connected.
overwhelmed with change and trying to keep a good balance with everything all at once. it's so strange because life doesn't overwhelm me as much as it is right now. I am very thankful for the people that do care for me and invest in my life.
I'm learning what it means to live not on my own strength, but to fully rely on the Lord's...it's no easy/small task.
I'm grateful for people who push me forward, for people who have wisdom and speak kindly, and for my job...where i meet so many people so often and can have a positive impact in their lives. no matter how big or small, that i can be an encourgaement to those i meet and that i can challenge and be challenged to live better to a higher standard, on a daily basis.


count cho' blessings child!

my siblings are so precious to me...I am so excited for both of them. I am so proud of them for their endurance and the choices they've made in life.
They are incredible people and i am so blessed to have them in my life!
My brother has worked really hard to get where he's at and he loves it! Also, He has fallen in love with his soon to be wifey! It blows my mind that we will always be kids, the three of us, but still. We grow up SO quickly...oh man, do we ever.
I am so excited that He will be getting back to the states soon! (even though it's not soon ENOUGH!) haha.
My sister just went on her first overseas trip to visit her friends in Ireland, then had the opportunity to visit my brother in Italy. She had a fun trip and didn't run into too many problems so that is nice for her & and for me to hear!
They are such hard workers, they persevere through life and "run the race w/ endurance" it's really amazing to see.
I just love the lives we lead...I am just very proud of the three of us and oh so blessed to have the beautiful siblings i have.

I hope your week is filled with joy and grace.

dads

today i drove to work and then we had worship...it was cool finally connecting with
the lyrics people around me were singing...someone shared a word and we prayed for
south korea.
then for small group we got into my car and...it wouldn't start.
for whatever reason i wasn't really stressed at all, which is not like me AT ALL.
someone helped me jump it, then we drove for about twenty minutes before arriving at our
destination, goodwill, where we had fun trying on different stuff and looking for something good to wear
for our end of quarter dinner.
We had to jump the car again...so we drove for such a long time AGAIN and arrived back at work.
At the end of the day, i tried to start my car and it wouldn't start, so my good friend John came and took a look
at it. He suggested that i get my battery tested & luckily, we have a place RIGHT by our work....so i took it on over
there and the guy basically told me: you're going to need a new battery, here is the one you will need, it's a hundred bucks.
I didn't know what to do, because i do not have a hundred bucks....so i just said: well, i really can't buy that now....can you just jump the battery again so i can drive it home?
the other guy in the shop asked what if i gave you a discount? and i just looked at him and said: even at that price, i couldn't pay for it, i just don't have the money....& then we were talking and i said i worked at YWAM and he said: really? oh. then he looked at the other guy and said: let's just donate it to ywam then.

i just got a brand new battery with a two year warranty from two really generous people, just because they wanted to bless me.
i started crying in the store...God met me just where i was at and said: I'm your father, this is what i do, i will provide for you. I love you, i care about you, i will protect you and keep you safe. You are my child, i will be here with you. I will give you peace in the crazy situations of life. I will be with you, for always.

I just like that my dad loves me and cares for me always.

He is good and oh so faithful.

[[for your steadfast love is before my eyes and i will walk in your faithfulness]]

that is one thing on my mind tonight.

i am thankful that as i continue walking forward, He stays in front of my face
so i don't have to worry or stress...what if You leave me?
He doesn't.
and i am thankful.

making my room cleaner than it is, makes my heart happy.

& that, is all i have to say.

mumford and sons is super relaxing and amazing.
i just got the CD (i know, right...how late am i?) and it's been
the best thing, while reading and writing...and i just love the guys
voice a ton. *yes, a WHOLE ton*


Having Nic over this past weekend was great...i love showing her off
to everyone around and getting to hang out and just be together, means
so much to me...

My birthday is coming up soon-ish and it doesn't feel like it at all this year...I don't know
why, but it just feels far away and unreal.

I feel like throughout this year i have learned more about His faithfulness and how steadfast
He actually is in my life. You can read the words and hear it so much that you become
desensitized to it. I never really understood and i'm still working on it, but it's nice knowing
it a little bit more.

I don't know exactly what this next year will be like, but i am so looking forward to all of it.

Fall has been the best thing to happen to me in a long while and i am so grateful for winter
to come to me. It really is the nicest season of them all.