so far this year, God has highlighted the words steadfast and goodness.

to trust in these things and to come to a better understanding of each of
them.


i guess, i am looking forward to seeing how this plays out in my life.
& i really like that He cares about exactly where i am at.
also, if you have time in your day...i suggest listening to the song

How deep the father's love for us.

it's pretty sweet...

have a nice week.

i am cool under pressure
i am cool under pressure
i am serene under pressure
i am good under pressure
i am fine under pressure
i am pristine under pressure

i am the queen of chill actually. if you were
to ask. that is the honest answer. because
i am amazing.

i am professional at keeping my cool.
oh yes, indeed. ask anyone, its true.

under every single circumstance that is
brought to my attention
that is coming into my world, i am the chillest
lady around.....


......

oh dang. my life...i just want to praise God in this blog a roo because i have been real freaked out about what to do in regards to my finances this upcoming year while staffing at YWAM Denver. (and if you wanna give to me, please email me...just sayin')
anyway...
so i have not wanted to sign my one year lease yet because i do not want to commit to something i don't have the money for...even though people call that faith & i believe that too, its just that i really want to be committed. ya know?
soooo, onto my favorite part of this blog.
I called my mom to say goodmorning while finishing getting ready for the day, its just something we do...and i got her voicemail. She called me right back and was like: sooo me & Mike were talking and because he is applying for a job @ cal poly (oh man, i'm praying he gets it, he works so hard & really enjoys SLO, so that'd be siiiick)...we can't come to visit you because that is when the interview process is & he will most likely be getting called back/we are going to give the money we were going to spend on the trip to you for your rent this year.
!!!!!!
WHAT?! no freaking way man!

so anyway: i was kind of freaking out at work yesterday during worship and just praising God for it. Its just nuts. Even though i still need more money for the rest of my rent and everything, i'm just so excited that God has provided this for me.

"God does not want to be your boss, he IS your father." -don miller-

I guess throughout these past few months and really looking back, He is my father. All i've wanted He has given me, okay...not necessarily wanted, but with the things i've needed He has provided. I just love Him a lot.

last night i got the priveledge of hanging out with my favorite Granger Grange. We went to chill in this mountain town that i'd never been to before and its a nice little 45 minute drive both ways. And both ways we got to have good conversation, just talking about everything under the sun(okay moon...) & it was so refreshing. I love the friendships i've made here, where it really is my family. Even though my family is in CA, i don't have a real connection to CA anymore, because i've fallen slowly in love with Denver. I think i may be here a while, even if i am not on staff in 2011...not that i need to know that right now, shoot i JUST arrived in 2010 & i feel so much peace about it.
God reminds me of His love for me through the mountains i get to see in the morning, covered in snow (oh yes, winter...iloveyou), in the crazy gorgeous purple-ish pink-ish sunsets, and the brisk cold air at night.

Anyway, i just wanted to share with everyone about God's love. And i know He has the same love for each of us, which baffles me sometimes...but its so nice. So anyway. wherever you're at in life, i challenge you to talk to God *as weird as it can be* do it.
its interesting what He speaks back.

He is a gentle & loyal friend, He is a provider, and He is love.

YES!

So huge thank you to God today.
Even though i went to bed stressed, i woke up and decided to call the dealership.
and its SEVEN dollars to get a new key made!
Me & Dakota are going once she gets home from work and then we are going to watch figure skating.

Not only that but i have been reading today and listening to chill music and i am so relaxed.

and that, is the Holy Spirit.

: ) happy thursday.

uh huh.

my car key broke in my trunk and my spare doesn't start my car.
not to mention my car......is broken-ish. it is just the battery and it is not that big of a deal. really.

trying to keep my perspective in the right place.
i could feel like...
i mess everything up.

but in reality:

my car key broke. it can be replaced. and i was planning on fixing my car anyway. the fact that something
is wrong with the battery, is just something that happened and now there needs to be a solution.

sometimes i wanna get all emotional about life, but then...i don't. and i guess that means i am growing up.
its not to say that i am always level headed and always chill...because majority of time i am not.
just ask anyone in my house. ...its cool growing up and its weird at the same time.

a neat thing that happened tonight was that my friend Tedi put a verse as her status on facebook.

So do not throw away this confident trust in the Lord. Remember the great reward it brings you! 36 Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised. Hebrews 10:35-36


That verse is pretty intense because for this next season in my life i am honestly scared.
i am scared about finances. i am scared about other things too, but mainly finances and making the correct steps in obedience to God...to be doing what i need to in order to have finances or whatever.

i only have a few more days of vacation left until i go back to work on monday. ...so i have to be wise with how i spend that time...this blog is so boring, because i am sorting things out in my mind right now.

okay here are things that i am thankful for: ::
--sleeping in.
chilling ALL day.
doing my hair & makeup today
going grocery shopping with Dakota
seeing some girls i haven't seen in a while and getting to catch up.
getting to chat w/ my family members.
having my family so close and so willing to help out when i need it.
my housemates <3
the really good smelling candle in my room.
my read everyday bible.
memories
the camera on my phone,
the video messaging that you can do through cell phones.
getting to talk with my sister via video messaging...HILARIOUS sister...
my new nail polish that i still haven't used but am going to use tomorrow.
and my cell phone, because without it...i wouldn't be able to call the dealership tomorrow
morning & figure out how to solve the issue in front of me.
the Holy Spirit for keeping me calm
the cupcakes in my kitchen
my waterbottle for being glittery
and my stepdad for being the funniest text message-er sometimes.


k.
going to write more.....tomorrow possibly.

a new city

God is crazy and i love him so much.
whenever i´m feeling discouraged or anything, God sends me an email through one of my friends.
when we got into this city the first thing i was thankful for was...drop in climate! this weather to me, is perfect. Well, winter and fall are perfect, but this is a very nice spring.
We had a debrief meeting with all the students and it was just fun for me to chill and talk with some of the girls and find out where they´re at.
we are all separated in three different apartments, but very close together. ours is across the street from the two other apartments. one is our meeting place, where we eat lunch and dinner together as a team (and all the boys and three of the girls live) and the other is where five girls live. I´m living with four other girls and they are pretty sweet people.

Currently we all have a weird sickness. mainly, its stomach aches but other people have fevers, so instead of doing park ministry today we are all just trying to relax and take it easy so that God can use us mightily sp? this week!
The second night here we realized as a house that we need to encourage one another more frequently and it was sweet because when i was reading my bible i got really stoked about the youth in this ctiy. Pereira sp? The youth are pretty much seeking after all of it...but really wanting God. So i was just reading psalms and the main thing that was revealed to me was hoping in God´s steadfast love.
This verse is amazing though::

Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name;
worship the Lord in the splendor of holiness.
The voice of the Lord is over the waters; The
God of glory thunders, the Lord, over many waters.
The voice of the Lord is powerful; the voice of the
Lord is full of majesty.

The voice of the Lord breaks the cedars; the Lord
breaks the cedars of lebanon, He makes Lebanon to skip
like a calf, and Sinon like a young wild ox.

The voice of the Lord flashes forth flames of fire;
the voice of the Lord shakes the wilderness; the Lord
shakes the wilderness of Kadesh

The Lord sits enthroned over the flood; the Lord
sits enthroned as king forever. May the Lord give strength
to his people. May the Lord bless his people with peace.

::Psalm 29.2-8 & 10-11::

this city has a lot of problems with drugs and gang violence
and my heart is that the youth wake up from the haze that surrounds
their hearts and envelopes them in hatred and self loathing.
i want to see them find real joy and peace in the Lord and not in
all the drugs and everything else going on.

As a team, we are just praying a lot for this city and really focusing on what God wants to do and His heart for this city. It´s great too, because we are working with a really cool church here and they are so willing to walk along side us on this journey. So, if we talk with people and they want to know more about how they can get help or whatever, we can pray for them, but also have these people here helping them...especially because we´re only here for a short time.
I know that God wants to do something sweet in restoring this city and i feel excited that He wants us to be part of it.

I just want to bring peace and joy to these people.

love to each of you!
xoxooo

holy HEAT!!!!

we are here in Montelibano, in the heat of life!! its crazy to me that people are wearing jeans everyday. the weather is like 90 ish with 90 % humidity!
siiiick!

God is doing so much here though..everywhere we go people stare at us, because not many americans visit this town. we do park evangelism everyday and the responses we get are incredible. Everyone wants to talk with us afterward and with the help of our translaters, we are making this work! God has really blessed this team, because everytime they go with willing hearts, he uses them! my favorite thing is that we are just here to talk wtih people and pray for them...i like the way the Holy Spirit chooses to move, in ways that i wouldn´t have thought of, but it works.


i like colombia, not so much the heat, but i like the country and i like the people a lot.
we´ve gotten pretty close with three of our translaters here, they´re so funny and crazy! two of them are 18 and one of them is 15. it makes me wish my spanish was better...but it isn´t. yet. hopefully sometime in life.
the people here are my favorite thing about outreach. constantly giving, helping, and encouraging.
i guess its a good reminder for me, of how i want to live my life....


love love to everyone!

ciao for now. xoxoo